Losing it.
I am not happy right now, and I am in vital need of change. I am sick of the same old occurrences lately — drinking to excess, blacking out, Frat boys. Yesterday my ex boyfriend dumped all of the things I ever gave to him while we were together (postcards from abroad, scrapbooks, letters and gifts) and he left it on my car. Maybe it was time for that to happen because everything is officially left to rest. Never again will I get entangled in that prolonged mess ever again.
I am so annoyed with my living situation, too. I feel like I have completely altered my lifestyle to be cop-esthetic to the boys I live with. And it’s not fair. I just need to vent and more importantly escape from this for a while.
It’s weird because I’ve always loved college. The adventures, excitement, rebellion. But right now I am SO beyond over it. I can’t wait to get lost in a big city again where no one knows my name, my story, or what I’ve been up to. I want sophistication & independence. I want someone to prove to me that chivalry is NOT dead. I am feeling so trapped.. so alone.
I start work this weekend in a tasting room so hopefully I can get a piece of mind and a change of pace, something I so desperately need.
S.O. freaking S.
